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The Pain of it All, The Writings on the Wall
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Date:2008-01-20 02:08

Plickty clow,
the sun has falled down
come on man help me out here
windex kleenex spandex have sex

that is all

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Date:2007-05-26 02:27

Omg wtf h4x

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Date:2007-05-24 19:12

Say girl, can I be your slave?
I've got to admit that you're the shit,
and I'm digging you like a grave.

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Date:2007-05-07 23:13

Court tomorrow.

Say a prayer for me.

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Date:2007-04-25 19:27

God hates me.

That is all.

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Date:2006-09-18 15:39

Just checkin in. Driving the big brown truck everyday, finally making some money! Still single, and probably will be FOREVER!! Playing way to much Battlefield 2! Zapruder Film is getting back together and will be playing @ Brothers on Saturday October 14, so be there or be a rectangle! and um...that's about it.

-Donkey Smell

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Date:2006-07-01 15:07


I've got a date, hopefully it will go well.

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Date:2006-06-20 13:56
Mood: indescribable

when the phone rang,
3 in the morning,
dead middle of night there was nuthin on the line
I set back the silent receiver
tiny flames lit in my head
Hey did any of you freaks here ever remember Lenny?
I can't remember his last name
he's turned to dust now, one of the chosen few
left out in the rain, out of town again
left out in the rain, ocean bound I guess

between the mattress and a column of hazy face
I remember every word you said
quite a clear picture: every word you said
the door was open but the way was not lit
and there was no way out of my head

on a crimson highway by a chrome bumper I last saw you:
Inclined to thrive
evening fireflies lit sparks around yr head

but wait a minute let's back up a bit:
some famous stars were busted down on fashion avenue
impersonating real mean
not knowing who they really were

now here at dark corners all is calm and quiet and good
the kids are up late dreaming quiet questions in a graceful mood:

can you please pass me a jug of winter light?
fold me in an ocean's whim?
in sweet corrosive firelight?
in the city made of tin?

are you famous under the skin?
familiar with the things you wanted?
able now to take it all in?
making peace w/ every hole in the story?

did lightning keep you up all night?
illuminate the soot and grit?
can you tell how high the sky tonight?
dig out from under in spite of it?

can you cover up the one that floats?
push back the hours?
I hear your voice, I speak your name
Among nyc ghosts and flowers
will we meet? to run again?
thru nyc ghosts and flowers

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Date:2006-02-08 15:37

When I hold you in my arms,
with my finger on your trigger,
I know, nobody can do me no harm

b/c happiness is a warm gun.

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Date:2006-01-31 15:18

You were wrong when you said, everything is gonna be alright.

You were right when you said:

all that glitters isn't gold
we're all just dust in the wind
we're all just bricks in the wall
you can't always get what you you want

You were right when you said this is the end.

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Date:2006-01-29 23:19
Subject:I don't even know where to begin really.

I sit here and look back over the past few years, hell just the past 8 or 9 months. So much has happened, so many things have changed, yet I haven't. The last couple of months have been extremely difficult. I never felt more alone in my life, and it depresses everyday when I wake up. But at the same time, I am fine with it.

Zapruder Film is no more, but everyone already knew that anyway. Kind of sucks b/c we were a good band, and I enjoyed playing shows but whatever, everyone has better things going on now I guess.

I am supposed to be getting ready to move back to Rome, but I find myself stalling. I hate J-ville, I have no friends here anymore, except Bomar, but at the same time, moving to Rome...will it make anything better? will I find a girlfriend there? So many questions, no answers. Thats life though huh?

This was going to be a much longer introspective post but in order to be introspective you need answers right? and I don't have any so there you go. That's how the cookie crumbles.

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Date:2005-12-18 20:30

I am alive.

I am moving back to Rome sometime soon.

I miss you. We need to make plans for the holidays, go get something to eat or something.

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Date:2005-12-06 14:53

Hey everybody. It's cold and all that. I don't want to go to work b/c it's cold and my throat hurts. lol alkdfjl;jl fouaiho;a o98438 ohvunjkln08au0 qu0u

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Date:2005-11-17 00:41

Long time no see. Just thought I would let everyone know that I am alive, somehow.

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Date:2005-08-20 02:05
Subject:Well let's see....

It's Friday night. The girl I am talking to is gone on a 10 day trip to Arizona, which is cool. My roommates aren't here. Well hell, who am I kidding, I only have one roommate these days, and that just happens to be Bomar. Thank god for Bomar! Jerry is gone on a mini-tour with his band for a few days, and Chad...Chad's so far up Leigh Anne's ass it wouldn't surprise me if he fucking ask permission to breathe. And yes I know he is gonna read this, that's why I typing it. I've only seen the guy for 10 minutes total in the last 3 weeks. It's fucking ridiculous. People like that fucking piss me off man I swear to god.

But anyway, so yeah, it's Friday I'm here all alone, which is fine. But I'm sick of playing Battlefield 2, so I go to the living room to watch t.v., and the fucking god damn satellite doesn't work. I guess the bill hasn't been paid. Which really sucks, b/c I have no money to go ANYFUCKINGWHERE this weekend and now I can't even watch t.v. I swear, if it weren't for the fact that the sight of a gun freaks me out, I just might go crazy and kill everyone I know and blow my own fucking brains out on the square in Jacksonville. FUCKING GOD DAMN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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Date:2005-08-18 23:23

I don't know about god, but I'm sure there's devil. I see it in the eyes of every man, and women, and child. I don't know about heaven or our souls, but our bodies are all going to hell. I don't know about love, it's just a chemical reaction exploding in the sky.

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Date:2005-08-18 02:58
Subject:Everytime I drink coffee it makes me piss

Well this week has been good. Been hanging out with chica, which has went well so far. I don't get a paycheck this week, which sucks b/c I am broke again. I am going on a job hunt tomorrow b/c I'm too old to be doing what I do, and I have to have money.

I am sick of people talking shit, and then when you see them, they act like your friend. I fucking hate this town. Should I move back to Rome or shouldn't I??????????? That is a huge question I am faced with, and I can't figure out the answer. If life were only like the SAT. C, A, B, C, D, C, D, D, D, D, C, A, E, I wish that's all you had to do. Anyway.

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Date:2005-08-10 20:57

In order to the general heir, strange sounds are rumbling. That gospel yeah yeah sound.

There were some strange events that transpired last night. I guess I will just play it by ear and see if I can go without screwing this one up.

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Date:2005-08-06 16:32

"If it weren't for all the drugs and madness, I would have killed everyone in the room and turned the gun on myself."

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Date:2005-08-04 04:55
Subject:So yeah and a whatchamacallit

I am so ready for this week to be over...

B/c I am on vacation again next week. I haven't decided what I am going to do yet. I don't really have the money to do a whole lot, but I have to do something. I should go spend the majority of the time in Rome with my family, since I haven't been up there in at least a month. But, if I have the balls I might to Baton Rouge, and god knows what would happen if I went there. I'm almost afraid of the possibilites. But anyway, just figured I'd update.

Hope everything is going well down in Montgomery.

"I wanna go
get on a plane,
head to the coast,
without a trace."

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